I hate it when I feel I have lost control of my life, but this past October was just a big reminder of how small we are for me, and I suppose, for my daughter, Heather, too. But, there was a big long trip to visit Matts children and grandchildren in Utah, and our brief visit to Nevada, where no man (me) will tread again! Las Vegas is just not that appealing to this small town girl! But, Matt had a good time, none the less. It was great seeing Ryan, Morgan, Kaylee and Braydon again, and I miss them horrible! Especially Madison and Jack. And, now I am unable to go back for Kaylees new baby, due to an uncertain colon (of all the things, really!)...And, when I get home, for the second time (from hospital) I find my yard has transformed on me, and my garden is closing it's drapes on another season. For some reason this time of year makes me melancholy, and I despise that! But, this year I guess I will truly have to take the time to embrace the season. I have missed several birthdays (a lot) due to traveling and stuff, but I pray they all know that grandma and mom were thinking of them. Keep your chin up, heather! I love you, t